It’s been an interesting week leading up to our trip. I’ve consistently asked God over the last couple of weeks to provide a stress-free week at work so that I can be mentally & emotionally prepared to go to Africa. What has my week been like thus far? Crisis after crisis.
I had a mini break down last night and today at work dealing with a difficult situation. I began to question God, even going so far as to say, “I feel like God is mocking me.” How could he be so unkind as to allow various “trials” in my life when I’m so desperate to be “all there” for this trip?
Poor Brian has had quite the time speaking truth into my life and trying to help me trust God with what’s going on instead of shaking my fist at him. As hard as it is for me to want to believe this, I truly think that through all these “crises” God is reminding me to, “Stop striving. Wait on Me. Trust My plan. Seek My wisdom in everything. Consider the times and how fleeting it is and do not be anxious for anything.” Sooo, so hard to do.
Thanks to the hubs for encouraging me with the following: 6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, 7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 8 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 9 Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. 10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 11 To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen